When God Opens A Door
You know when you get that feeling in the pit of your stomach that pushes you to act on something? The guiding force that holds nothing back. A desire has been planted and it begins to grow more furiously with each thought. Well, that feeling is how I got here. I cannot describe it as anything other than a complete push from the Holy Spirit.
Let me pause and take you back a little bit.
I am the type of person who always has a plan. I was in love with my high school sweetheart, we were going to get married, buy an old Victoria house in Saratoga Springs. A fixer upper where with the help of my dad and brothers we would turn it into our dream home. I would get a job teaching in the local school district. We would have a bunch of children because large families were always a part of who we were. Him 1 of 9. Me 1 of 4. I could do go on, but it’s pretty clear my plans didn’t come to fruition.
What’s that expression? “You want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans?”
The only thing that went according to my plan was marrying Michael and what a gift that has been - I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Here’s the thing, I don’t know that I totally agree with that saying. After all, who are we to think we are in control. We are merely so little in everything we do. God has His plan, and to think otherwise is what should make us all laugh.
Adoption has always lingered in my heart, but it took a few years of real struggle for us to truly be willing to receive the calling. God always knew this was part of our plan, it took us being patient and waiting for his timing. Waiting and waiting for him to reveal the plan bit by bit. Spoiler, we still don’t have all the pieces. Instead of being frightened and overwhelmed by that, I am excited and here is an example of why…
Ever since we began the adoption process my passion surrounding all aspect of adoption really began to grow. There was so much to understand, it was complicated. I kept seeing examples of such beauty, but at the same time such devastating loss. My own feelings were complicated upon bringing our daughter home. I was so grateful for this ultimate sacrifice of her birth parents and at the same time I felt so incredibly guilty. My heart was filled with sorrow for them, for how they were feeling and dealing with placing their daughter in our home. Adoption can be tough. Not just the relationships, logistics, legal components, emotional aspects, and so on. The more I learned, the more involved I wanted to become. My passion to share, educate, and serve others grew.
A few more days, weeks, and months went by when that feeling I mentioned came with force. It happened when I saw a post from Christian Adoption Consultants that read, “Now Hiring”. Immediately I bookmarked it and started praying. My mind was swarming with questions for God as I tried to discern if this was something I was being asked to do. The pieces came together in a perfect way. In a way that was clear God had a plan for me as an adoption consultant. God opened this door and I found myself running through it.
I don’t know what the future holds, but if I have learned anything He does not disappoint.
”Ask, and it will be given to you, search and you will find,
knock and the door will be opened for you."
- Matthew 7:7 -